Anonymous asked: number 28

28. A confession.

Oh, what to confess… I guess there’s many things considering I have a lot on my mind. I confess that there’s this boy I really like but I don’t want to, I confess that I’m getting super stressed with trying to choreograph my company dance, I confess that I still miss my ex boyfriend even though we’ve been broken up for well over a year now, I confess that I don’t give a shit about school anymore, I confess that I’m one of the biggest fucking bitches you will ever meet, I confess that I sometimes burst out into tears when I’m alone just because, I confess that I’m ready for college but I’m so scared at the same time, I confess that I’m scared of being lonely for the rest of my life, I confess that I’m tired of being the awkward single chick in my group of friends, I confess that I’m terrified of ever losing my best friend, I confess that even though I’m an atheist I still have good morals, I confess that I’m just a sad person, and lastly, I confess that I’m only human.

I’m going on a cruise with my drill team and I will be gone Thursday - Monday so I won’t be posting at all considering I’m going to be going to Cozumel!

CYA LATER.

I think my atheism is just a phase.

Anyone willing to help a second semester senior out with college decisions?

I thought I had everything figured out: go to Texas State University in San Marcos and major in Dance; now, I’m not so sure. My best friend wants me to go to University of Arizona with her, which don’t get me wrong is a fucking amazing school and is practically the same as TXST and yea, there are a hell of a lot more benefits for me but I really don’t know… I could get academic scholarships by just applying. I would totally have no problem going especially since I’d be with my best friend [who I don’t know how I could possibly live without, she’s pretty much my rock/my everything, I can’t even begin to put into words how much she means to me] and away from pretty much everyone I despise and starting completely fresh. I just really have no idea what to fucking do what-so-ever… The only reason I wouldn’t go is because UofA doesn’t have what I want to do - dance. I mean, they do but the program is hard as fuck and I’d probably fail out. :I Dancing is my passion and it’s something that I want to do for the rest of my life. Yea, I could major in something else that would make me a lot of money but I’d rather be doing something I love making nothing than doing something I hate and making everything.

Should I really throw something away that could potentially be my future or give in to something temporary?

So, this weekend my best friend got me drunk for the first time ever… Why was I against alcohol again?

I guess I had just always compared it to smoking weed and figured it did the whole different state of mind thing but it really doesn’t.

Also, I ended up with this big ass bruise on my leg from attempting to ride a kid’s bike while drunk…I REGRET NOTHING.

I’ll just admit it. I’m a really shitty officer. :c

School starts tomorrow… KILL ME. This means I won’t be on as much but I’ve thankfully filled my queue c: Hoorah!

Time for dance to start consuming my life again, yay!

Each end of the year is always bittersweet for me. Like most people, I always feel that it’s a new beginning.

Honestly, I’m so happy that the year 2011 is ending. It was the shittiest fucking year of my life. It was a year full of heartbreak and loneliness. Although, I did find out who my true friends were. The year 2012 seems so promising: Graduation, college, finally getting a car, getting a job. I’m just ready to get away from this shit hole called high school. Everyone fucking sucks. I cannot wait to be making new friends in San Marcos, happily 3 hours away from Houston.

My thoughts are pretty scrambled when it comes to writing this so, I apologize to those who actually take the time to read this. But, I guess I’ll sum it up: Fuck 2011 and bring it on 2012!